DEAR GOD!

How long will you make me wait, Tormenting me in this state? When will I meet myself, When will you call me, my fate? When will you make me yours, And close these painful doors? In this life's journey, loyalty's not within me, Grievances with myself, not with Thee. I sought the destination, but it disappeared, Convincing myself, not you, my Dear. What more can I say? Maybe I was never meant to stay. My own have broken me, not strangers, Others left, but my own caused dangers. Forget others, the fault is mine, I'm not even true to myself, divine. Why do I do this to my heart? Do I not know my secrets from the start? Am I ruining myself on purpose? Or is there hope beneath the surface? I'm wrong for seeking loyalty so near, They listened, pretending to care. But then revealed my secret scars, Was it wrong to ask for loyalty in stars? Yes, my fault was seeking loyalty in humans, So Prone to break and cause confusion. No grievance with You, my closest friend, As close as so...