DEAR ALLAH!

HEY ALLAH!!

nhi pata kia hogya hai, 

aesa lag raha sab kho dia hai,

shyd sabne mujhe chor dia hai,

nhi....

khudse mene khudko tor dia hai,

intezaar hai apka or kitna tarpaogey, 

kb mujhe khud se milaogey,

kb apne pass bulaogey,

or kitna mujhe tarpaogey,

kb mujhe apna banaogey,

is zindage ke safar mein wafa mujhme nhi,

khud se hai gilla apse to nhi,

manzil ko pana tha manzil hi na rahe,

shyd khud ko mana raha tha,

apko nhi,

apno ne toora hai apne nhi,

logon ne chora hai apne nhi,

auron ko chorein saara qusooor mera,

shyd.

mein to khud ka khud bhi nhi,

to ku kr rha hu mein ye apne sath,

kia  janta nhi hu khud ke raaz,

ya jaanke kr rha khud ko barbaad,

ya dil mein abh bhi hai thodi aas,

galat to hn mein hi sahee,

ke mein dhoond raha wafa apno ke pass,

wo sun to rahe the mere har bt,

or keh rahe the hm haina sath,

phr khol dye ku mere wo saare raaz,

kia galti mere thi ke mene wafa thi maangi,

hn mere glti thi ke insaano se maangi,

nhi apse koi gilla nhi ap to mera sab se pass,

itne ki jitne rooh or jism hain sath,

 

pr kia kabhi mene apko dil se pukaara?

kia kabhi mene apko apna banaya?

kia kabhi mene apse wafa ka wada nibhaya?

kia kabhi mene apki rasi ko mazbooti se thamaya?

kitni baar mene dilse apke aagey sir jhukaaya?

kitni baar roothe hoe apko mene manaya?

kitni baar kitni baar mene apka dil dhukaya,

kitni baar mein nhi karoonga bolke phr wohe dhoraya,

kitni baar mene un gunaahon ko dohraya,

kitni baar mene geron se dil lagaya,

kitni baar mene jhoot ko apna banaya,

kitne munafiqon se hath milaya,

kitni baar apko mene sataya,

phr bhi...

har baar apne mujhe apna banaya,

ku har baar apne mere gltyon ko darguzr farmaya?

ku har baar apne mujhe hasaya?

ku har baar mere gunaahon ko mujhse apne hataya?

ku har baar apne pass hone ka ehsaas dilaya?

ku har baar apne mujhe apse milwaya?

ku har baar mujhe acha bnda hone ka ehsaas dilaya?

nhi hu mein is qabil...

mein apse dosti nhi kr paya.

mein apse dil nhi laga paya.

mein apko ku nhi mana paya.

mein apse ku wafa nhi nibha paya.

mein apse ku dosti nhi kar paya.

mein apse ku dil nhi laga paya.

shyd kamyaan mujh mein hi hain,

shyd nhi hn gltyaan mujh mein hi mein,

or kitna khud ko kosu ki mein hu hi bura?

or kitna khud ko bolu ki insaan ki fitrat mein hai hi nhi wafa,

hn wafa mujh mein nhi mein ku ksi mein dhoondu,

hn gilla khudse hai mein ku ksi ko bolu?

jb qussor hi saara mera to ku mein shikwa karu,

jb dil hai pathar ka mein ku muhabat karo?

Pr hn...

muhabat bhi hoe to chand se shaks mein,

ehsaas der se hua ke sitaron pe ham the,

wo najane ku roooth gye hmse,

hn glti yhn mere na thi pr wo tooth gye hmse,

arey

ye bhi koi bt hoe,

najane ye kese raat hoe,

hn jane hm ke kuch aese bt hoe,

ki unki ek or shaks se mulaqat hoe,

bss wahein se door hm unse hogye,

bnd krdye dil ke darwaze or magroor hogye,

khole phr kitabein to qalam chakna choor hogye,

pr aj bhi lagta hai ki muhabat unhein bhi thi pr wo majboor hogye,

pr ek baar kehdete kuch to,

dekhye..

aj hm apki khatir sbse door hogye,

AREY NHEIN...

apke siwa kuke apto srf hamare, (GOD)

ye bt hr us shaks ke dil mein hai,

jinehin ap apna bana rahe,

ap bhi har ksi ko muhabat dekha rahe,

mein bhi to aphi ka banda,

phr kb mujhe apne pass bula rahe?

mein bhi to aphi ka banda,

phr kb mujhe apne pass bula rahe?